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210 litae doua to “Thou tenantless and verdant island, I shall soon cease to gaze upon thy, calm and beautiful features: a few days more, and thou shalt no longer hear a human voice. Still weaker and fainter, still more languid and exhausted, and still does my mind seem to gather all strength that my body loses; the expiring light of reason flares brightly in its socket. How sweet it is to pass away thus ! to grasp with delight the outstretched hand of death, and press it to your heart as that of a friend and deliverer. I have but a single pang-if I could only have one more sight, one more em- brace of my darling boy. But it cannot be ! My child, my child ! my own affectionate and beloved boy! Were it my last breath it should be uttered in invoking blessings upon thy heads Farewell ! farewell for ever!.

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from the firmament, playing upon the sumthrough the air, wrapping my soul in an Ely. sium of sound. : :And lo! the blue curtain of

al that I shall be set free ere I can again look out upon the lovely face of Nature

, or see the flaming orb of day rise from the ocean. He will shine to-morrow upon these: Lustreless eyes, for there will have been no one to close them, and the lifeless lids will not come down to shade them from his ray. I shall no longer contemplate and enjoy this glorious pageant of Nature. It will go on, and I shall be no more missed from its surface than is a pebble idly cast down into the deep darkness of a well

. But if I quit what is dear to me, I shall go to that which is dearer--to my wife and children; and why should I regret earth when I hope to exchange it for heaven?

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the sky is rolled up, revealing to me the celestial glories, upon whose foremost splendours. I see the forms of Fanny and Agnes, and Henry is with them, and they embrace one another, and hold out

a scroll to me, which is inscribed the words night!" Far, far behind them panies of angels, with dulcimers and harps, and in the innermost depths are dazzling figures of cherubims, on which I cannot look for their intolerable splendour; and the whole assemblage strike their instruments together, as their dulcet voices unite in singing the Hallelujah ; and the sun and moon, the constellations and the stars, join the seraphic chorus, until all creation echoes with one universal harmony!

“ Glorious vision! thou may'st fade from mine eyes and disappear, and the ravishing strains of music may be no longer heard, but enough has been revealed. Now am I indeed certain that

To-night" I shall depart. I close my manuscript, for I have done with earthly records. If

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