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but when her returning consciousness brought w her recollection that she had publicly exi

posed her weakness, for she knew nothing of farebes the friendly interpretation which Emily had so

she' reflected that Mrs. Chatsworth and Lady Crockatt would not fail to draw a thousand injurious inferences from the circumstance, and

such deep sense of humiliation suddenly overwhelm. ed her, that the blood again rushed tumultuously to her face; she felt a momentary dizziness, as if about to suffer -a relapse, and rode on in the most distressing though silent agony of mind. Adeline, who had not learnt the information respecting Reuben, by which her sister had been overcome, was too deeply occupied in recalling the fulsome compliments she had received from her mustachoed partner, to need any other companion than her own vain and giddy thoughts ; and it was perhaps fortunate for Helen that her attention was soon withdrawn from the painful occurrence in the ball-room to the sudden and unprecedented anguish be«

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trayed by her mother. Lady Trevanian's nerves had received a shock from Helen's alarming illness, which had in some degree weakened her customary audacity, and when she reverted to the pointed indignities that she had experienced, when she reflected upon the injury which her unpopular character was likely to inflict upon the children whom she loved, all the errors of her past life seemed to rise up in judgment against her; her spirit was no longer kept in a state of tension by the support of her pride, her feelings suddenly broke through the barriers by which they had been forcibly restrained, she fell upon Helen's neck, burst into a hysterical passion of tears, and sobbed like a child until the carriage arrived at Harpsden Hall.

should desert her at the moment when she had most urgent need of its support, and expose

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“Stone walls do not a prison make,

Nor iron bars a cage;
Minds innocent and quiet take

That for an hermitage.-
If I have freedom in my love,
And in

my soul am free,
Angels alone, that soar above,
Enjoy such liberty."

RICHARD Lovelace.

Helen passed a sleepless night, a prey to various emotions, of which she herself did not exactly comprehend the source, though she felt them to be not less degrading than painful. That the self-possession which she had evinced under circumstances equally critical and trying,

her to the injurious comments of a crowded

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assembly, was humiliating to her pride, to that honest pride which aimed not only to be superior to misconduct, but even to the suspiciones of it. : From Lady Crockatt and Mrs. Chatsworth, who would probably connect her illness with the unexplained occurrence in the paintingroom, she anticipated every thing that was sneering and contumelious, nor could she yet without compromising herself and family

, undeceive them, and assert the purity of her own motives and conducti The acute distress by which she had been so utterly overcome upon learning Reuben's arrest, she herself attributed solely to the surprise of the moment, to the deep interest which she would naturally take in the safety of a man with whose fate that of herself and sister had become so strangely implicated ; one whom she herself had been the means of preserving from danger on a former occasion, and one, above all, whose death would make a total shipwreck of Adeline's háp piness. These were capsiderations abundaatly sufficient to explain and vindicate her emotions though they might not remove her regret at the

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weakness which she had betrayed, nor reconcile - to her to its publicity. r As to the supposition of

any more tender and heartfelt attachment, as to
latest the possibility of her loving the same man as
lp Adeline, of her becoming the rival of her sister,
Tad such a notion had not even suggested itself to

her bosom, and if it had, it would have been
indignantly chased away as a desecration of the
sanctuary into which it had intruded.

All thoughts, however, upon her own ac-
THEA count, either as to the danger she might incur

from a discovery of the part she had'acted to

wards Reuben, or of the calumnious rumours internet by which her character might be assailed, speed

ily yielded to that generous consideration for the happiness and safety of others which formed the distinguishing trait of her mind. Adeline was at present in happy ignorance of her lover's fate, a situation in which she determined to leave her; (unless she should learn it from others,) until she should have tidings to communicate which might perhaps entirely counteract, or at least alleviate, the shock of the intelligence, by affording her a rational ground of

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