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little to attach her to this world: but what a weight of glory in the world to come! This mean despised chamber is a palace in the eye of faith, for it contains one that is inheritor of a crown."

I approached without waking her, and observed that she had been reading the twenty-third chapter of St. Luke. The finger of her left hand lay upon the book, pointing to the words, as if she had been using it to guide her eye whilst she read.

I looked at the place, and was pleased at the seemingly casual circumstance of her finger pointing at these words:

"Lord, remember me, when thou comest into thy kingdom." "Is this casual or designed?" thought I-"Either way it is remarkable."

I came to that place, I stopped, and thought what a mercy it would be, if the Lord Jesus should remember me likewise-and so I fell asleep, and I fancied in my dream, that I saw Christ upon the cross; and I thought I said, 'Lord, remember 'me' and he did not look angry upon me-and then I awoke."

All this seemed to be a sweet commentary on the text, and a most suitable forerunner of our intended sacramental service.

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"Well, my dear child, I am come, as you wished me, to administer the sacrament of the body and blood of our blessed Saviour to you; and I dare say neighbour K- will be glad to join us.' "Talk to me a little about it first, Sir, if you please."

"You remember what you have learned in your Catechism about it.

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But in another moment I disco- Let us consider-A sacrament, vered that her finger was indeed an you know, is 6 an outward and visi index to the thoughts of her heart. ble sign of an inward and spiritual She half awoke from her dozing grace given unto us, ordained by state, but not sufficiently so to 'Christ himself, as a means whereperceive that any person was pre-by we receive the same, and a sent, and said, in a kind of whrisper,

Lord, remember me-Remember me- -Remember-Remember a poor child-Lord, remember me

She then suddenly started, and perceived me, as she became fully awake a faint blush overspread her cheeks for a moment, and then disappeared.

"Dame K-, how long have I been asleep?-Sir, I am very sorry"

"And I am very glad to find you thus," I replied: "You may say with David, 'I laid me down, and slept: I awaked, for the Lord sustained me.' What were you reading?"

"The history of the crucifying of Jesus, Sir."

How far had you read, when you fell asleep?"

"To the prayer of the thief that was crucified with him; and when

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pledge to assure us thereof.' Now the Lord has ordained bread and wine in the holy Supper, as the outward mark, which we behold with our eyes. It is a sign, a token, a seal of his love, grace and blessing, which he promises to, and bestows on, all who receive it, rightly believing on his name and work. He, in this manner, preserves amongst us a continual re'membrance of his death, and of the benefits which we receive 'thereby."

"What do you believe respect. ing the death of Christ, Jenny?" "That because he died, Sir, we live."

"What life do we live thereby?" "The life of grace and mercy now, and the life of glory and hap piness hereafter: is it not, Sir?"

"Yes, assuredly; this is the fruit of the death of Christ: and thus he opened the kingdom of heaven to all believers.' As bread

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and wine strengthen and refresh your poor weak fainting body in sickness : se does the very blessing of his body and blood strengthen and refresh the souls of all that repose their faith, hope, and affections on Him who loved us, himself for us." gave Tears ran down her cheeks, as she said, "O! what a Saviour! O! what a sinner!-How kindhow good! And is this for me?"

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Fear not, dear child: He that has made you to love him thus, loves you too well to deny you. He will in no wise cast out any that

come to him."

"Sir," said the girl, "I can never think about Jesus, and his love to sinners, without wondering how it can be. I deserve nothing but his anger on account of my sins. Why then does he love me? -My heart is evil. Why then does he love me?-I continually forget all his goodness. Why then does he love me?-I neither pray to him, nor thank him, nor do any thing as I ought to do. Why then

does he love me?"

"How plain it is, that all is mercy from first to last; and that sweetens the blessing, child. Are you not willing to give Christ all the honour of your salvation, and to take all the blame of your sins on your own self?"

"Yes, indeed, Sir, I am. hymn says,

Blest be the Lord that sent his Son
To take our flesh and blood:
He for our lives gave up his own,
To make our peace with God.
He honour'd all his Father's laws,
Which we have disobey'd;
He bore our sins upon the cross,

And our full ransom paid."

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"I am glad you remember your children's hymns so well, Jenny."

"Sir, you don't know what pleasure they give me. I am very glad you gave me that little book."

A severe fit of coughing interrupted her speech for a while. The

woman held her head. It was distressing to observe her struggle for breath, and almost, as it were, for life.

"Poor dear," said the woman, "I wish I could help thee, and ease thy pains: but they will not last for ever."

"God helps me," said the girl, recovering her breath: "God helps me; he will carry me through.Sir, you look frightened-I am not afraid--this is nothing-I am better now. Thank you, dame, thank you. I am very `but troublesome; the Lord will bless you for this and all kindness to me: yes, Sir, your and yours too. Now talk to me again about the Sacrament."

"What is required, Jenny, of them who come to the Lord's supper? There are five things named in the Catechism-do you remember what is the first?"

She paused; and then said, with a solemn and intelligent look,

"To examine themselves whe ther they repent them truly of their former sins."

"I hope and think that you know what this means, Jenny: the Lord has given you the spirit of repentance."

"No one knows, Sir, what the thoughts of past sin have been to me. Yes, the Lord knows, and that is enough; and I hope he forgives me for Christ's sake. Ilis blood cleanseth from all sin. Sir, I sometimes think of my sins till I tremble, and it makes me cry to think that I have offended such a God; and then he comforts me again with sweet thoughts about Christ."

"It is well, my child-be it so. The next thing mentioned in that answer of your Catechism, what is it?"

"Steadfastly purposing to lead a new life."

"And what do you think of that?"

"My life, Sir, will be a short one; and I wish it had been a better

one.

But from my heart I desire that it may be a new one, for the time to come. I want to forsake all my evil ways, and evil thoughts, and evil words, and evil companions; and to do what God bids me, and what you tell me is right, Sir, and what I read of in my Bible. But I am afraid I do not, my heart is so full of sin. However, Sir, I pray to God to help me. My days will be few; but I wish they may be spent to the glory of God."

"The blessing of the Lord be upon you, Jane; so that whether you live, you may live to the Lord; or whether you die, you may die unto the Lord: and that living or dying you may be the Lord's. What is the next thing mentioned?" "To have a lively faith in God's mercy through Christ, Sir."

"Do you believe that God is merciful to you in the pardon of your sins?"

"I do, Sir," said the child, earnestly.

"And if he pardons you, is it for your own sake, Jenny?"

"No, Sir, no; it is for Christ's sake, for my Saviour Jesus Christ's sake, and that only-Christ is all."

"Can you trust him?"

“Sir, I must not mistrust him; nor would I, if I might." "Right, child; he is worthy of your trust."

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in charity with all men? Do you forgive all that have offended you Do you bear ill-will in your heart to any body?"

"Dear! Sir, no, how can I? if God is so good to me, if he forgives me, how can I help forgiving others? There is not a person in all the world, I think, Sir, that I do not wish well to for Christ's sake, and that from the bottom of my heart."

"How do you feel towards those bold, wanton, ill-tempered girls at the next door, who jeer and mock you so about your religion?" Sir, the worst thing I wish them is, that God may give them. grace to repent; that he may change their hearts, and pardon all their wicked ways and words. May he forgive them as I do with all my soul."

She ceased-I wished to ask no more. My heart was full. "Can this be the religion of a child ?” thought I; "O! that all were like her."

Reach me that prayer-book, and the cup and plate. My dear friends, I will now, with God's blessing, partake with you in the holy communion of our Lord's body and blood."

The time was sweet and solemn. I went through the sacramental

service.

The countenance and manner of the dear child evinced powerful feelings. Tears mingled with smiles; resignation brightened by hope; humility animated by faith; child-like modesty adorned with the understanding of a riper age; gratitude, love, peace, devotion, patience all these were visible. thought I distinctly saw them all

And then, Sir, I am to have a thankful remembrance of his death. I can never think of his dying, but I think also what a poor unworthy creature I am; and yet he is so good to me. I wish could thank him.-Sir, I have been reading about his death. How How I could the people do as they did to him?but it was all for our salvation. And then the thief on the cross- -that is beautiful. I hope he will remember me too, and that I shall always remember him and his death most thankfully."

"And lastly, Jenny, are you

and did I alone see them? Nay, I doubt not that other Beings, whom I could not behold with my natural eyes, were witnesses of the scene.

If ever ladder were placed in Bethel; if ever ministering angels ascended and descended with glad

tidings between earth and heaven, I think they did so then. When I had concluded the service, I said,

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Now, my dear Jane, you are indeed become a sister in the church of Christ. May his spirit and blessing rest upon you, strengthen and refresh you!"

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My mercies are great, very great, Sir, greater than I can express-I thank you for this favour I thought I was too young-it seemed too much for me to think of: but I am now sure the Lord is good to me, and I hope I have done right.".

"Yes, Jenny; and I trust you are now both outwardly and inwardly sealed by the Holy Ghost to the day of redemption."

"Sir, I shall never forget this day."

"Neither, I think, shall I." "Nor 1," said the good old woman: "the Lord has been in the midst of us three to-day, while we have been gathered together in his name."

"Sir," said the child, "I wish you could speak to my mother, when you come again. But she keeps out of your sight. I am so grieved about her soul, and I am afraid she cares nothing at all about it herself."

"I hope I shall have an opportunity the next time I come. Farewell, my child."

"Good bye, Sir, and I thank you for all your kindness to me." "Surely," I thought within myself, as I left the cottage, "this young bud of grace will bloom beauteously in paradise. The Lord transplant her thither in his own good time! Yet, if it be his will, may she live a little longer, that I may farther profit by her conversation and example.'

Possibly, some who peruse these simple records of poor little Jane, may wish so likewise. If it be so, we will visit her again before she departs hence, and is no more

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THE YOUTH'S REMEMBRANCER.

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now God in his providence has given you: for, generally speaking, we forget God when all things go well with us: like David, many have to bless God for affliction; in that, by this, our past ways are brought to remembrance." Upon which he gave me an expressive look with tears,and said, "That has been my case; and I fear, yea, I tremble, lest I should be cast out; but I desire, I think I can say, also, I do earnestly pray, that I may have right views of myself, and that I may be brought to Jesus Christ." "Well," I replied, "he came to seek and to save them which feel themselves lost." Shaking his head, he said,

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"O, Madam! where had I been if I had died some months back, when I caught a violent cold? Oh! I must have perished.' Upon my informing him that my stay with him must be short, as I was going to church, he said, "Oh, that I could go with you to hear the word of God! The last time I heard Mr. S-, my soul felt powerfully under the word: the blessing of being there!" I then, after a few words, took leave of him, with his earnest entreaty to call on him again the next evening. At my second visit, I found him still longing to hear spiritual conversation and upon my asking if he had been accustomed to hear the Gospel, he said, with much agitation, "To my shame, Madam, from my infancy-O, Madam! I had a pious mother, who used to teach me the things belonging to my peace; but I never felt the word reaching my heart till within these three months, under Mr. S-, whom I look upon as the instrument of my beginning in earnest to think of religious things." He then told me the happiness he had found in sending for Mr. S to visit him, observing, "that he felt great reluctance in letting Mr. S come to him; for he thought he was a man so far advanced in divine things, that he could not stoop to his experience; but," he said, "Mr. S came as a kind father full of tenderness; and after I had told him my fears, he told me, that there was in the word of God, what he called broad promises, such as, Whosoever cometh unto me I will in no 'wise cast out;' and,' The blood of Jesus Christ cleanseth from all sin' As I live, saith the Lord, I have no pleasure in the • death of a siņner;' and said Mr. S-, 'When I read such words as these, I feel like a man who has his feet upon a rock, a something • substantial to rest my soul upon.' And I do trust my soul has felt a

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degree of confidence ever since I assure you, the next time Mr. S→→ came, I felt these words, How blessed are the feet of those who 'bring good tidings!' I felt pleasure at the sound of Mr. S-'s feet; and it was great pain when I found he was going out of town; but he said, he was sure you would endeavour to visit me, in his absence." Upon iny going to prayer, he looked at his sister-in-law, and said, "Sister, leave the room, and let Sally (i. e. the servant) in; for you know you

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have many opportunities." Looking at me, he said, "She (Sally) is a good girl, and I do earnestly long for her soul's salvation, and do think there is something so kind, naturally, that grace would make her truly amiable."

When I went again, some days had clapsed, and he said, "I thought it so long. Well; now stay as long as ever you can." On my asking how he had felt his mind; with a very significant shake of his head, he replied (to use his own words), "Lagging behind work-I cannot raise my mind as I would; it is truly astonishing that I, who have nothing else to think of, find my thoughts carried out after other things." I said, "This shows the total inability of man; and that we are not able of ourselves even to think a good thought, and that we must be saved by grace alone." which he felt powerfully, and said, "Dear! what a strange thing that any should talk of works! I am sure I have nothing; for though, through mercy, I have been what the world calls a moral young man; yet (putting his hands on his breast), what have I harboured here? (Weeping.) When, perhaps, education, or natural temperance, has kept me from actions, my heart has been full of evil." He then told me things in reference to his situation in business, observing, "You little

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