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in the land may live happier than you if you will, or be more honourably used.

Well, Mrs. Jewkes, said I, I shall not, at this time, dispute with you about the words ruin and honourable: for I find we have quite different notions of both: But now I will speak plainer than ever I did. Do you think he intends to make proposals to me as to a kept mistress, or kept slave rather, or do you not?-Why, lambkin, said she, what dost thou think thyself?-I fear, said I, he does. Well, said she, but if he does (for I know nothing of the matter, I assure you), you may have your own terms-I see that; for you may do anything with him.

I could not bear this to be spoken, though it was all I feared of a long time; and began to exclaim most sadly. Nay, said she, he may marry you, as far as I know.-No, no, said I, that cannot be.-I neither desire nor expect it. His condition don't permit me to have such a thought; and that, and the whole series of his conduct, convinces me of the contrary; and you would have me invite him to come down, would you? Is not this to invite my ruin?

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"Tis what I would do, said she, in your place; and if it was to be as you think, I should rather be out of my pain, than live in continual frights and apprehensions, as you do. No, replied I, an hour of innocence is worth an age of guilt; and were my life to be made ever so miserable by it, I should never forgive myself, if I were not to lengthen out to the longest minute my happy time of honesty. Who knows what Providence may do for me!

Why, may be, said she, as he loves you so well, you may prevail upon him by your prayers and tears; and for that reason, I should think, you'd better let him come down. Well, said I, I will write him a letter, because he expects an answer, or may be he will make a pretence to come down. How can it go?

I'll take care of that, said she; it is in my instructions.Ay, thought I, so I doubt, by the hint Mr. Williams gave me about the post-house.

The gardener coming by, I said, Mr. Jacob, I have planted a few beans, and I call the place my garden. It is just by the door out yonder: I'll show it you; pray don't dig them up. So I went on with him; and when we had turned the alley, out of her sight, and were near the place, said I, Pray step to Mrs. Jewkes, and ask her if she has any more beans for me to plant? He smiled, I suppose at my foolishness; and I popped the letter under the mould, and stepped back, as if waiting for his return; which, being near, was immediate; and she followed him. What should I do with beans? said she,and sadly scared me; for she whispered me, I am afraid of some fetch! You don't use to send on such simple errands. -What fetch? said I: It is hard I can neither stir, nor speak, but I must be suspected.-Why, said she, my master writes, that I must have all my eyes about me; for though you are as innocent as a dove, yet you are as cunning as a serpent. But I'll forgive you, if you cheat me.

Then I thought of my money, and could have called her names, had I dared: And I said, Pray, Mrs. Jewkes, now you talk of forgiving me, if I cheat you, be so kind as to pay me my money; for though I have no occasion for it, yet I know you was but in jest, and intended to give it me again. You shall have it in a proper time, said she; but, indeed, I was in earnest to get it out of your hands, for fear you should make an ill use of it. And so we cavilled upon this subject, as we walked in, and I went up to write my letter to my master; and, as I intended to show it her, I resolved to write accordingly as to her part of it; for I made little account of his offer of Mrs. Jervis to me, instead of this wicked woman (though the most agreeable thing that could have befallen me, except my escape from hence), nor indeed anything he said. For to be honourable, in the just sense of the word, he need not have caused me to be run away with, and confined as I am. I wrote as follows:

'HONOURED SIR,-When I consider how easily you might 'make me happy, since all I desire is to be permitted to go 'to my poor father and mother; when I reflect upon your

'former proposal to me, in relation to a certain person, not 'one word of which is now mentioned; and upon my being in 'that strange manner run away with, and still kept here a 'miserable prisoner; do you think, sir (pardon your poor 'servant's freedom; my fears make me bold; do you think, 'I say), that your general assurances of honour to me, can ' have the effect upon me, that, were it not for these things, 'all your words ought to have?-Oh, good sir! I too much apprehend, that your notions of honour and mine are very 'different from one another: and I have no other hopes but "in your continued absence. If you have any proposals to 'make me, that are consistent with your honourable professions, in my humble sense of the word, a few lines will com'municate them to me, and I will return such an answer as 'befits me. But, oh! what proposals can one in your high station have to make to one in my low one! I know what 'belongs to your degree, too well to imagine, that anything can be expected but sad temptations, and utter distress, if you come down; and you know not, sir, when I am made desperate, what the wretched Pamela dares to do!

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'Whatever rashness you may impute to me, I cannot help it; but I wish I may not be forced upon any, that other'wise would never enter into my thoughts. Forgive me, sir, my plainness; I should be loath to behave to my master 'unbecomingly; but I must needs say, sir, my innocence is 'so dear to me, that all other considerations are, and, I hope, 'shall ever be, treated by me as niceties, that ought, for 'that, to be dispensed with. If you mean honourably, why, 'sir, should you not let me know it plainly? Why is it necessary to imprison me, to convince me of it? 'I be close watched, and attended, hindered from stirring out, 'from speaking to anybody, from going so much as to church 'to pray for you, who have been, till of late, so generous a "benefactor to me? Why, sir, I humbly ask, why all this, if

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you mean honourably?—It is not for me to expostulate so 'freely, but in a case so near to me, with you, sir, so greatly 'my superior. Pardon me, I hope you will; but as to seeing 'you, I cannot bear the dreadful apprehension. Whatever

'you have to propose, whatever you intend by me, let my as'sent be that of a free person, mean as I am, and not of a 'sordid slave, who is to be threatened and frightened into a compliance with measures, which your conduct to her seems 'to imply would be otherwise abhorred by her. My restraint 'is indeed hard upon me: I am very uneasy under it. Shorten it, I beseech you, or-but I will not dare to say "more, than that I am

'Your greatly oppressed unhappy servant.'

After I had taken a copy of this, I folded it up; and Mrs. Jewkes, coming just as I had done, sat down by me; and said, when she saw me direct it, I wish you would tell me if you have taken my advice, and consented to my master's coming down. If it will oblige you, said I, I will read it to you. That's good, said she; then I'll love you dearly.-Said I, Then you must not offer to alter one word. I won't, replied she. So I read it to her, and she praised me much for my wording it; but said she thought I pushed the matter very close; and it would better bear talking of, than writing about. She wanted an explanation or two, as about the proposal to a certain person; but I said, she must take it as she heard it. Well, well, said she, I make no doubt you understand one another, and will do so more and more. I sealed up the letter, and she undertook to convey it.

Sunday.

For my part, I knew it in vain to expect to have leave to go to church now, and so I did not ask; and I was the more indifferent, because, if I might have had permission, the sight of the neighbouring gentry, who had despised my sufferings, would have given me great regret and sorrow; and it was impossible I should have edified under any doctrine preached by Mr. Peters: so I applied myself to my private devotions.

Mr. Williams came yesterday, and this day, as usual, and took my letter; but, having no good opportunity, we avoided

one another's conversation, and kept at a distance: But I was concerned I had not the key; for I would not have lost a moment in that case, had I been he, and he I. When I was at my devotion, Mrs. Jewkes came up, and wanted me sadly to sing her a psalm, as she had often on common days importuned me for a song upon the spinnet: but I declined it, because my spirits were so low I could hardly speak, nor cared to be spoken to; but when she was gone, I remembering the cxxxviith psalm to be a little touching, turned to it, and took the liberty to alter it, somewhat nearer to my case. I hope I did not sin in it; but thus I turned it:

I.

When sad I sat in B-n Hall,

All guarded round about,

And thought of ev'ry absent friend,
The tears for grief burst out.

II.

My joys and hopes all overthrown,
My heart-strings almost broke,
Unfit my mind for melody,

Much more to bear a joke.

III.

Then she to whom I pris'ner was,

Said to me, tauntingly,

Now cheer your heart, and sing a song,

And tune your mind to joy.

IV.

Alas! said I, how can I frame

My heavy heart to sing,

Or tune my mind, while thus enthrall'd
By such a wicked thing!

V.

But yet, if from my innocence

I, ev'n in thought, should slide,
Then let my fingers quite forget
The sweet spinnet to guide.

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