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After this, Mrs. C's grand concern was to train up her children in the fear of God, and the devoted her time to their education. About two years ago fhe was requested, by fome of her friends, to increafe her ufefulness, by taking a few young ladies to educate with her daughters; and the paid unremitting attention to them, till within two months of her departure.

Her firft feizure was on the 1ft of May, laft year. It was fudden and alarming, but he was quite compofed; though from the nature of the diforder (which was a rupture of a blood veffel on the lungs) fhe was not able to speak fo as to be heard, as the leaft exertion might have been fatal. But, by a letter written foon after to a friend, we found the was favoured with divine fupport; and her confidence was firm in God, that he would do all things well. Her defire was to live for the fake of her dear fatherlefs children; and it gracioufly pleafed the Lord to fpare her valuable life fome months longer; fo that, during the fummer, the was able to attend to her children and pupils. Her friends faw her health declining, but the herfelf thought the fhould recover. About Chriftmas fhe had another flight attack, from which time her ftrength vifibly failed. On March 3d, the attempted to take a ride, and with difficulty was got into the chaife; but was fo bad that the was obliged to be taken out, and continued very ill all the day. She then faid, "I find I am not likely to get over it:" But her faith was unfhaken. She viewed her approaching diffolution with compofure, begging that her mind might not be interrupted by any worldly news, with which fhe was not immediately concerned; as The wifhed to have her thoughts wholly occupied with heavenly things. She faid, the never had loved the world much, but now the loved it lefs; fhe was glad to find that her departure was at hand, and often repeated, that the longed to be with Jefus, to behold his glory.

She had the moft exalted ideas of Chrift, and often spoke 'of the dignity of his perfon, and of the fulness of the atonement made by his fufferings and death. As the expreffed high thoughts of Chrift, fo the entertained low thoughts of herfelf She lamented that he had done no more for Chrift, and had lived fo many years to fo little purpose. After her death, a paper was found written with her own hand, dated March 6th, 1793. "The Lord feems gently to be leading me down to the river Jordan. O! May I fee my great High Pricft ftanding in the midft of the river while I pafs over. To confider death only as it refpects

myfelf, it is defirable; for while here, I can never love the Lord as I would, nor ferve him as I would; but in Heaven,

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I fhall love without ceafing, and ferve without interruption. It has been my delight to fearch out the glories of Immanuel here below, but how faint the glimpfes are! There I fhall fee him fhine forth in all the glories of a God: therefore it is abundantly better to depart and be with Jefus,"

Her fon, being fent for from fchool, arrived on the 7th of March. She received him with the fame compofure and chearfulness as if in perfect health. That, and the two following days fhe was much better, and took the opportunity! to fettle her worldly concerns, entered into every circumftance refpecting her funeral, and gave directions concerning the children, begging us to purfue the fame plan of education till her daughters were grown up.

On Saturday morning, 10th inft. the was very weak, but her faith was ftrong. She defired that her own children might be fent out, and that fhe might fee all her pupils together, to give them her latt advice. When they were come into her room, the addreffed them in the most affectionate manner, as follows:

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My dear children, I have fent for you to talk to you, as I have not long to be with you. While I was able, it was my greateft delight to inftruct you, particularly in the things of God, as far as I was able, and I have always loved you with the tenderness of a mother; now I am going to leave you, it has been my earneft wish to fee you feeking an intereft in Jefus, for no one can enjoy true happiness without it. All earthly comforts are but trifles. The world is very enfnaring, but its pleasures are not real. A comfortable fituation on earth is defirable, but it is not to be put in comparifon with the things of God. Human learning is excellent and valuable, but the knowledge of Chrift is far fuperior. I earnestly intreat you my dear children to feek an intereft in Jefus fearch the fcriptures, for they teftify of him. Do not be fatisfied with reading them in courfe, but ftudy them for yourfelves, with prayer to God that you may understand them. We are all born finners, and as fuch fhould have been loft for ever, but for the sufferings, and death of the Son of God. I shall meet you again at the great day. I hope I fhall meet you all at the right hand of Chrift, and that you will be of the happy number to whom he fhall fay, "Come ye bleffed of my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you." O! may none of you hear the fad word, "Depart." No one can defcribe the delights of Heaven or the torments of Hell. I have got but a very little tane to be with you". On feeing them in tears, the faid "Do not grieve that I am going to leave you. I fhall go to Jefus, to be happy

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forever, much happier than I can be here. Do not grieve too much when I am gone, but feek Jefus and prepare to meet me in glory. It is by no work of your own you can do it. Remember thefe are my dying words, you will never repent of feeking Jefus too early, and you may die foon: for if a foul is loft, it is loft for ever, and and if Hea ven is gained, it is gained for ever. Do not tell my children that I fay, I fhall not be long here: only say that you have been with me, and I have been talking to you. Come now my dear children and kifs me for the laft time. God bless you all, my dears, do not grieve." She then took each of them affectionately by the hand and kiffed them.

In the afternoon, a perfon called who had lived fervant with her, whom the exhorted to flee to Christ as a guilty finner; for that we were all guilty before God, and if we did not take Chrift for our whole Saviour, he would be no Saviour; he did not come to do the Work of Salvation by halves. She with great earneftness preffed it upon her to truft in Chrift alone, often repeating these words with energy," Remember Chrift is a whole Saviour, or no Savi. our; you must go to him as the Publican, and rely wholly on his atoning blood for Salvation. But, (fhe added) do not miftake me; I do not mean to exclude the neceffity of good works they are neceffary as an evidence of our love to Chrift: what I mean is, that we must not truft in them for falvation."

In the evening, fhe took an affectionate leave of her fervants, begging them to confider the worth of their immortal fouls, pointing out Chrift as the only Saviour, and expreffing her carnet defire of meeting them in glory.-To her own dear children, who were often with her, the frequently addreffed fome weighty fentence, always putting on a fmile when they were prefent; but did not take her leave of them that day. To a friend, who called to take a laft farewell, the faid, I hope you will foon meet me in gloiv; but it must be alone in the righteoufnefs of Chrift. The laft few days the fpoke with difficulty, as her breath got fhorter; but what the faid always difcovered her confidence in Chrift and love to him. On thefe lines being repeated

to her,

"How sweet to recline on the bofom divine,

"And taffe all the pleafores peculiar to thine !"

She faid, "I never had thofe rapturous joys that fome have expreffed; but I have been favoured with a confidence in the fulneis there is in the atonement of Chrift. I can truft my foul to him as a faithful God. I know that i love him, and I know that none can, unless he fift love them. I long to fee more of his glory." Од

On the Lord's day, being told that her dear Eliza had repeated those words, " It is the Lord, let him do what feemeth him good," the expreffed great delight that the Lord had fubdued her will to his will; as the dear child had previously expreffed herself almoft in anger, that the Lord would not hear her prayers, and reftore her dear mamma.

Being asked how fhe was in her mind, the faid, "The Lord is my ftrength and my portion. The eternal God is my refuge, and underneath me are his everlafting arms. The eternal God, Oh, how fweet !"-She expreffed a deep fenfe of her own unworthinefs, and the glory that awaited her-repeating thofe lines of Watts:

"Then fhall I fee, and hear, and know
"All I deur'd or wifh'd below,

"And ev'ry power find fweet employ
"In that eternal world of joy."

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On Monday fhe took leave of her own three children.. She told them that no mother had more tenderly loved children than fhe had loved them. She hoped to have lived to see them grow up in the fear of God: but the Lord had chofen greater happinefs for her. She earnestly intreated them to feek unto Jefus Chrift for falvation; for which pofe the begged of them to fearch the fcriptures, to delight much in reading them, for they teftified of Christ. She told them that from a child the fcriptures had been her delight. She enquired of them if they had ever thought of of their fouls; to which they replied, they had. She faid the falvation of their fouls had always lain near her heart. On feeing them weep, fhe begged them not to grieve too much, for the fhould foon be in glory; and if they loved the Lord Jefus Chrift, and trufted in him for falvation, they fhould all meet again before his throne. She requested them to look upon thofe relations, to whofe affection and care fhe had entrusted them; not only as they now flood related to them, but to confider them as parents, and obey them as fuch, to behave towards them as they had to her; they had been good children and he hoped would continue fuch. Then (turning to her fon) fhe faid, remember the advice of Solomon, "My fon, if finners entice thee, confent thou not." Then looking upon her daughters fhe told them that the left them all in the hands of a good God, and .wifhed them to confider that many things which appeared as great evils to us, the Lord over-ruled for good; and she hoped they would above all things feck to him, to whom the committed them for time and eternity.

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- On Tuesday evening, the gave them her laft bleffing, faying to each one of them, in a moft folemn and affectionate manner," God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit blefs you." After the children were gone to bed, the begged my fifter and me to give her up to God and prayer. Never did we three enjoy fweeter communion together. It was a folemn feafon, never to be forgotten, to refign one fo near, fo beloved; but through Chrift ftrengthening us we can do all things. Surely we had an anticipation of the glories of the upper world. It was as the gate of Heaven. We felt that the happy union which had fubfifted between us would not be diffolved, because we were united in our head, Chrift Jefus. She was only going home a little before us. On Wednesday, the day on which the died, being asked if her confolations continued, the anfwered, "Yes, juft the fame." Mr. P. prayed with her, a few hours before her departure. On his taking leave, the defired her love to Mrs. P. wifhed them both as happy as the then was; for no greater happiness could the with them here below. To fome friends who called fhortly after, the faid, "It is comfortable dying with Chrift." She often repeated, "I long to be with him." Her laft words were, "I am going home." Between nine and ten o'clock in the evening with a gentle figh, without either groan or struggle, the entered into the joy of her Lord.

Her dear remains were committed to the filent tomb on the fabbath evening following. Mr. P. preached to a crowded congregation from thofe words of her own chufing, John xvii. 24. "Father, I will that they also whom thou haft given me be with me where I am, that they may behold my glory."

The lofs of fuch a mother, fuch a fifter and friend, in ` the midst of ufefulness, is to be lamented; but our lofs is her gain. The dear children alfo confole themselves in their mother's happiness. That the God of their parents may be their God, and that they may be early called by Divine grace to fill up their places in the houfe of God, will, I doubt not, be your prayer at the throne of grace, as well as that of

Rev. and dear Sir,

Your afflicted friend,

H. N.

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